My Angel Babies

I met my husband in high school, and the rest, as they say, was history. In 2020, we decided to seek help with our fertility journey, as it just wasn’t happening on its own. Then, COVID hit, and everything came to a halt. After some time, we were finally able to move forward and were thrilled to see a positive pregnancy test in September. Unfortunately, the pregnancy ended far too soon, and our hearts were broken.

Thankfully, we were blessed with another pregnancy soon after, this time with twins! The journey was incredibly stressful and tumultuous, with our boys spending time in the NICU, but today, our rainbow boys are 3, and we love them more than words can express.

After a few years, when we felt like we were starting to find our footing, I couldn’t shake the feeling that our family wasn’t quite complete. So, we decided to pursue fertility treatments once again. But then, to our surprise, we found out I was pregnant! We were overjoyed at the thought of meeting our little one and seeing her face—the love we had carried for so long was finally about to be fulfilled. But just as quickly as that joy arrived, it was taken away.

We lost our precious baby to miscarriage, and the grief was more profound than I ever imagined. The heartbreak left a hollow space where joy had once been, and I was lost in the weight of it all.

To honor the short time our little one was with us and the love she brought into our lives, I bought a mini locket. Inside, it holds the initials of my angel babies—a simple yet powerful reminder that they existed and mattered. Though their time on earth was brief, their impact on my life is immeasurable. The locket is a tangible connection, a way to carry them with me even though they are no longer physically here.

Wearing this locket is a daily act of remembrance. Each time I hold it close to my heart, I am reminded of the love I have for my babies and the strength I’ve found through their memory. The pain of their loss is still with me, but it’s softened by the knowledge that they will never be forgotten and are always with me in spirit.

It’s been a difficult journey, but I carry them with me wherever I go. The locket is my way of honoring their time on earth, no matter how brief, and acknowledging the lasting impact they’ve had on my life. They will forever be my angels—my little ones who left too soon but will never be replaced. Through this simple gesture, I continue to honor their memory and the profound love that will never fade.

- Courtney Jacobson