One Hopeful Mama

Every couple that wants children starts their journey thinking that pregnancy is just going to happen. You time your cycle, you love your partner, you get pregnant, you start a family. But then it’s not that simple for you.⠀⠀

You reach a year and decide something isn’t right. It shouldn’t be this hard. So you see a doctor and accept that maybe you need a little help. You go over labs, bloodwork, ultrasounds, and uncomfortable exams. Only to get zero answers, and more discouragement. ⠀

Another year passes and still nothing. You come to the realization that you will likely never conceive without medications, injections, and further medical intervention. You feel your hope start to dwindle away. You wonder “Why” and if there’s a way through the storm. But when you sit and think of the moment you get to hold your sweet, precious miracle baby, it somehow makes sense. Every delay is a simple “not yet.” As the days pass, it's one day closer. Each ounce of heartache is molding you into the person God intended you to be.⠀⠀

I knew I wanted to get myself a little “good luck” charm before beginning treatment. SomethingI could wear everyday and take to every appointment. So when I found this dainty bar necklace from Tiny Tags, I knew I had to have it! The fact that I could personalize both sides was a game changer. I decided to have “hopeful mama” on one side. A reminder that although I grow weary in this journey of infertility, I never regret holding onto hope.⠀

The other side has my absolute favorite bible verse, “Isaiah 40:31.” It reminds me to hold on and trust in the lord. It reads, 

“But those who hope in the lord

Will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

They will run and not grow weary,

They will walk and not be faint”

This life of infertility is a continual process of struggle, transformation, and growth. This struggle is a part of your story, this crazy timely, amazing, and sometimes sad, but also radiant story. To all those in waiting, hold on and never lose hope. That one day you may experience the radiance of the rainbow that follows your struggle in trying to conceive!

COVID update April 2020:

This life of infertility is a continual process of waiting, transformation, and growth. Especially in the times of this global pandemic. Thousands of treatments including ours are being cancelled due to this crisis. We are being forced to wait with things out of our control and no continuation in sight. It’s soul crushing but also soul strengthening. 

To my fellow trying-to-conceive sisters with cancelled cycles and in the waiting, my heart is with you, hold on and never lose hope. That one day you may experience the beauty of the rainbow that follows your struggle in trying to conceive.